What a wonderful day!!! (july 17th, 2005)

I was supposed to go to a baptism in the morning, but, I slept in (hehe...no surprise there! ) But still, congrats to Gary, Nancy and Patrick for their big day!!!

I then went to the beach for Janice's birthday (Happy Birthday!!!). Didnt stay there for long, but it was nice to enjoy the sun and some bbq!

and then....I went to Wonderland!!!!!!! I haven't been to wonderland since gr10. and honestly, it was SOOO FUN!! it was nice to go on all the rides, to feel the rush and the drop. oh man, SOOO GOOD!  I had the long anticipated funnel cake, *tried* to win a big Stewie, and best of alll, we went on the "Suicide Jump", aka, the extreme skyflyer, the bungee jump thing! It was sooooo scary..but sooo fun at the same time! i couldnt help but scream and laugh! Re-watching our videos was funny toO!

we ended off our great day with a meal at good ol' kelseys! seeing the look on Ben's face was priceless! its really hilarious to see someone try so hard to be sooo fake! haha. priceless!

all in all, a very very very great day.  By far, one of the best days i've had in a very long time...thanks to the wonderful friends i have in my life

good times ...good times.. definitely a highlight of my summer!

trusting Him is all that i can do...and look at where He's taken me! For those of you who have been around me lately will probably know what im talking about.

Proud supporter of my "single" button! hahah.

So this is how it feels......

....seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me...i used to stand so tall, i used to be so strong.  Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right...Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong.  Now i can't breathe, No, i can't sleep, i'm barely hanging on.  Here i am, once again..I'm torn into pieces.  Can't deny it, can't pretend...Just thought you were the one.  Broken up, deep inside.  But you won't get to see the tears i cry.....Behind these hazel eyes. 

....I told you everything, opened up and let you in.  You made me feel alright for once in my life.  Now all thats left of me, is what i pretend to be...so together, but so broken up inside.  'Cause i can't breathe, No, i can't sleep, i'm barely hanging on...
...Swallow me then spit me out.  For hating you i blame myself...Seeing you it kills me now.  No i don't cry on the outside....anymore...

--Kelly Clarkson. 

Its weird how there's always this one song that fits your mood perfectly. 

Someone wise (hehe) once told me that it's not about 'getting over' someone, it's just about 'letting them go'.  I never completely understood what that meant, or understood how that was even possible...until now.  Like the fish and penguin card (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA) says:  "Relax, God is in control".  

-Honesty guys, that card makes me pee my pants. What would YOU  do if you saw a FISH on my head?!?!?!?!? ---Didn't think so!  ba hum bug!

-Today is the finally the LAST day of "taste of asia," where a little bit of kennedy is closed off for all the asian people of markham/scarb to unite...where the sound of bells, and the smell of stinky tofu is somewhat celebrated. ..Oh.... Joy.  The funniest part is that everyone walking the streets has an umbrella! hhaha. prepared for the rain? nooooope. scared of the sun.  haha. hilarious. 

Dream Bigger, Don't Settle. 

So tonight was a very interesting night.  Very interesting indeed.  Started out with a potluck, followed by the basketball game, and then, a LOOOONG talk outside of Kelseys until 4:03am.

Joe put a lot of things into perspective for us, and frankly, ALL of us were glad it had happened.  Sometimes, we're just so consumed with our current situations, that we become blind to the bigger picture in tact.  I love my ex-coworkers (haha..that sounded funny), and if it took working at Kelseys for me to realize:

a)the world is stupid, unjust, and....uh..round b)Ben is racist and..you know it guys..."oppressive" hahah c)my passion in life d)I totally can't hold three plates on one round and e)great friends are hard to come by....etc, etc, etc..theres more, there's more..hehe

 .....than it was ALL worth it!!   hehehe....

It was really really nice seeing you guys tonight To me, it's the little things that make all the difference!   

Steffie..hang in there you angry monkey!  Vicki....my neuroscience, med-student, UofT-er we'll get through this =)  Joe...oyy..."hey..look at that chick.."...."Joe, they're not chickens!!!" HAHAHAHAHAH. sooo jokes. *high five* you're cool. 

After all the crazy events of the past little while, this verse really started to make more sense to me: 

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perserverance."  James 1: 2-3

.....its true, to know, and have confidence that God has bigger plans for us, bigger than we can ever imagine, and all we have to do is trust Him.  It just boggles me to hear that, but even more so, to actually know that its true?  Now that's a work-in miracle. 

"...can i stay here forever here...with You?.."

What a wacky week!

la la la...so out of utter boredom, and a lack of friends to rant with, I decided to join Xanga! haha, what a way to pass time eh?    

Over the past 2 weeks, I've learned the significance of timing,  how the timing of everything is so prominant!  But more importantly, how God's timing is so perfect. Everything seems to FINALLY be falling into place. The wave of people that I've been blessed wtih in my life...Wow, is all that I can say.  They're so awesome, being total encouragments, taking me out EVERY night (thanks Fi, loveee you!) and just showing me what more there is to life! 

I'm totally embracing this newfound freedom, and surprisingly, it feels great 

Matt 5: 3-5 says: 

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.  Blessed are those who mourn, for they will get comforted.  Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth." 

-Thanks Gizelle, that was totally for me, you're such an inspiration

So tomorrow I'm buying my first guitar...how coooool is that? Mike has promised he'd teach me before he leaves...so I'm holding his word for it! haha...Starfield, Song # 10 here I come!! hahahaha

Summer of worship ? Im sooo down for that!